Does it Make You Feel Good to Know I Roll With Your Punches

taking deep breaths

the last of the few

my heart stutters

knowing what i have to do

i've asked the sparkling eyes

to save me from despair

in my blurring eyes i see

they don't really care

dependent on pills

to keep me awake

was dependent on you

to keep me from this mistake

wish i knew how to pull myself out

and make it better

too late i'm afraid

as i sleep now forever.

Break It, You Buy It: But You Don't Own Me

it'd be nice

every once in a while

if somebody

would notice

that im

not

happy

and as i

lie with my face

buried into

my sheets

i realize no

one can hear me

and no one can see it

if only they knew

everything

like i did

maybe

just maybe

they might

understand

just how bad

it hurts

Holding Stars in Your Back Pocket

I was taught to express how I feel through writing. Luckily TLC wrote it for me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eG1_2k5jTwg

If I Never Get to Meet The President, At Least I Have You

you could be stupid

you could be ugly

you could be cupid

you could be smugly

you could be fun

you could be rude

you could be dumb

you could be crude

you could be poor

you could be tall

you could be more

you could be small

you could be it

you could be sad

you could be shit

you could be bad

you could be grand

you could be flauntly

you could be bland

as long as want me

Pretending to Text to Avoid Confrontation

usually before i make it

anywhere

i quit

but this time i'm happy

to say i found it

somewhat often I find

i don't care a bit

but it's different this time

because i found it

I never believe

a thing that those experts have writ

but I'll take it all back

since I have finally found it

Regularly I brace myself

for the bruise following

the hit

but guess what?

i don't have to

cause you helped me find it.

Laughing Is Almost As Fun As Watching You Suffer

sun who uses its might
and knows everything
will you teach we how to
be free and sing?

teach me to learn
like the trees
to hum like the bees
to love like the rain
to never feel pain
to smile like river
to fly like the breeze
to shine like silver
to fall as the leaves

teach me to breathe
like the flowers
to run like the birds
to lay peaceful for hours
to express love in words
to feel as valiantly as weather
and after I've learned it all;
to sleep quiet forever

Can your daddy's PT Cruiser do this?

desperation before I reach again
finding I can't find the words
I have to say with pen

falling short of everything
a failure yet i am
try to keep on smiling
faults take stand.

broken promises i am pieceless
surrounded by black grief
broken heart stays sleepless
respect: the first to leave.

Dubstep isn't Dubstep without a Drop

so how am i supposed to know

which pieces fit where

on the giant puzzle of life?

deep breaths and despair

i just wanna get this one thing

right.

fighting for everything at once

i dont wanna let you down

but how do i win honestly?

the biggest secret of them all

i just want someone to fight for me.

I say you find your own way home.

couldn't be the sound

you needed

couldn't be the hand

you reached for

couldn't be the heart

you wanted so much to share

reaching for stars

reaching for chances

never gonna get close

enough

i wish i were close

enough

to reach for anything

again.

missed opportunities

missed..i have missed

i will miss

i can miss

i always miss

hit or miss?

I Refuse to Finish Last First

trying new food is easy

trying to kill is gorey

trying to learn is useless

trying to love is a whole different story.

believing in unicorns is sweet

believing in ghosts is weary

believing in faeries is different

believing in love, though, is totally scary.

hating is simple and unnecessary

laughing is relaxing and fun

crying is harmful and hurts

loving is stupid and can't be undone.

Close the door and Open Three More

there's no love like yours

i swear by the planes,

the trees,

the hearts,

the warmth behind doors,

there's no love like yours

hiding behind lies

i keep silent and hold my breath

counting

down

to one

the sound dies

shh, i'm

hiding behind lies

i'm protecting my sanity

i'll sit

i'll stay

i'll roll over

i'll play dead

for your vanity

i'm protecting my sanity

there's only one way to leave

not easy but do-able

pushing open

the only door in my way

wiping tears on my sleeve

there's only one way to leave

and i've found it.