Isn't It Fancy that You Only Want One Thing

hold me in your arms
tell me that you want me
tell me that you want to be
more than just this
take this pain i have
kiss away the hurt
rub my crying eyes
scrub away the dirt
care for me like
i care for you
love me
like i know
you'll never do

The Funny Sound Water Coolers Make

and I thought that maybe

we could be done with this

cycle of me pulling down

me pulling down

and you pushing

your pushing me to a point

where I can't breathe

or scream

screaming

I'm screaming at you

but you hear laughter

they hear nothing

they see the bruises

bruises on my arm

can't see bruises on

my heart

heart

my heart

is broken

you have broken

breaking me once again

because this cycle

cycles over

and over

over me, I can't get

over you

as I lie

underneath

your constant restraint

restraining my life to

nothing

nothing I am

Maybe if You Stopped Talking About You, You Would Hear My Scream

Removed

from space, and time

-is no longer mine

Replaced

in this moment, here

-a place you are not

Arranged

like a doll on a shelf, there

-i wish that's where I was

Accelerated

to a land I don't belong, to

-be someone I'm not

Prepared

if you're getting used to, this

-hasn't gotten old for you yet

Pulled

out of realization, gone

-is what i'll never be

Expected

to be a smiling ball of, fun

-what you have when you hurt me

Extended

out into the, far

-is where i should be when it comes to you

Denied

all attempts of, ending

-is what i need to do

Destroyed

i have no more, chances

-that i cannot take because of you

Is That Really What You Want the Last Thing You Say to Me To Be

i'm going to dance like you
aren't standing there
with you're hand cupped over
your mouth
wondering
what the hell did you just get into
i'm going to do what i do

i'm going to sing like you
aren't recording my
horrid voice from
outside the bathroom
and going to put it on youtube
to show the world
how tone-deaf your
girlfriend really can be
i'm going to just be me

i'm going to smile like you
aren't waiting right around
the corner
with a pie dish filled
with whipped cream
just waiting to smash my face
and hear me scream
so you can tell your friends later
you're the bomb
i'm going to be nothing like your mom(:

i'm going to love like you
aren't up early in the morning
just to make the coffee first
cause you know
without it
i might just be your mom
and that would end badly
i'm just going to be me,
you'll see

Give Me A Night Flower, and Call it A Rose

and i'll stay in yo arms foreva
as long as you're be willing to hold
my face in your hands
smiling,
listening ta me tell you all ta plans

i ain't goin no where
lest you kick me
straight______
out the house
and onto the porch
baby

cause you can't evict no girl
from your heart
so i might be gone from your bed
and even tho she might
be in your
sheet--->there
i'm still goin ta be
the one in yo head

but i won't get to no bad stuff
cause i be trustin you
wit it
ALL
because that's where you gotta
start
i gotta trust you
to get me
when
i
fall.

and if in the end
you still standin there
shakin yo head at
me and my ramblin
motor mouth self
and you be brushin that
new south wind
outta my hair

then i be knowin
that i aint gotta worry bout
no otha girl
cause you aint goin

and it's cute how you walk out so quickly when the conversation turns to you

tired of excuses
tired of walking away
tired of taking chances
tired of seizing the day

tired of trusting liars
tired of believing you
tired of listening to everything
tired of being told what to do

tired of being hit
tired of having to deal
tired of shaking scared
tired of what's real

tired of bleeding
tired of screaming
tired of crying
tired of dreaming

tired of wondering
tired of giving
tired of hoping
to be honest ;
just tired of living

Seeing in Negatives

leaning against

that old willow tree

that's be standing there

ma whole life

you start thinkin about some things

you thinkin

why did i think

i knew everythin back then

standing against

that old willow tree

that's been standing there

longer than i'm willin to admit

you get to watchin

them other kids playin

in the sand box

and you thinkin to ya self

man, i wish i was in da sandbox

falling against

that old willow tree

that's seen so many lives past by

you start rememberin ol' stories

and you get mighty depressed

cause you ain't got no one

to share em with

but then ya stare up

at that ol' willow tree

and you get to thinkin

damn, i don't even have ta

tell ya

Sometimes You're Inspired, Other Times You Aren't

baby girl, i say to you

that though we've never met

know, that there is nothing i regret

my chances with you

taken from both of us

i ask you to forgive, to learn, to trust

there is no time

that i don't wish to hear your voice

if only we had a choice

baby girl, trust

that I fought for you

but in the end there was nothing i could do

baby girl, believe

that I tried

but I still failed to keep you alive

baby girl, consider

that nothing in life is free

nothing comes easy

baby girl, know

that it was him that did this

is wasn't me.

Sailboat on a Book

shaking with weakness
I'm trying to explain
where my thoughts come from;
why I'm filled with pain

at a loss for words,
I hope you can understand my tears.
I've been meaning to tell you
for all of these years.